Today is a blue day....

Hiya...


I know its been a long time no speak but well things have been a little mad.


The title of this post comes from a lovely lady I saw at my demo on Saturday in Swindon. I think I said I was having a green day on an earlier post with my butterfly card... well today its a blue day... but not because of the colour blue but rather the emotions associated with the colour.


Firstly though I want to say a big thank you to anyone who came along to my demos since my last post. I should have been on here to say how lovely as always it was to see you but well time has flown by - but never mind it is ALWAYS lovely to see you all and share tips, ideas, sometimes a little gossip.... and I love seeing new friendships developing out there... crafting is such a fabulous catalyst for friendships and bringing like minded people together...you only have to go along to the craft club I go to each month to see all the fun, laughter and sharing that goes on.... for me it has to be one of life's great pleasures :o)

This was never meant to be a blog for personal stuff but only for crafting related things but today that colour I was talking about has over taken my feelings a little bit... I can't believe it but I've been married to my lovely hubby coming up for nearly five and a half years and ever since a few weeks after we got married when I fell down the stairs we never seem to have had any peace - for three years I was in so much pain I could barely do anything so bang went all the little luxuries in life I had hoped we would have from my high flying career, we had to make the decision not to have children because of the accident, we've spent nearly three years looking after my mother in law who has myeloma and now suffers from dementia, supporting my father in law and now for all intents and purposes doing most things for him because his life now consists of the home where my mother in law is being looked after and Sainsburys, there is to be another conference with the doctors about her care next week, having got to a point where I could do some part time work the lady I have done some book keeping work for on a subcontracted basis has withdrawn any work I was doing for her because she doesn't have enough and owes me hundreds of pounds, I have very little work left at all that I can do and after three years of my husband's job being messed around with he is now being made redundant (you may say he should have moved before but there are reasons why it is difficult for him to move job that I won't go into here) and so we are worrying about keeping a roof over our heads... my family live miles away and I barely ever see them and I am tired of trying to keep on top of it.....

And after another phone call I had earlier which I really don't want to go into here just for today it all seems a bit much.... and should I have written about it here... well maybe not but sometimes I just don't know where to turn, I just want some good news for once....

BUT then, I remember I spoke to a lovely lady on Saturday who was really poorly recently and has found out she has a life changing condition she'll have to deal with and I read the posts I'd missed from the blogs I follow and I see the one from Nikki in Scotland who recently lost her very young husband and I realise that things could be so much worse. I realise well maybe today things do feel a bit bad but I do have so much to be grateful for and I'm sure we can sort our way through this. It seems hard at the mo but could be so much worse and tomorrow is a new day....

So I was blue but having got it all out my system maybe I feel a little bit more pink!! :o)

I'll be back in the not too distant future with more designs and crafty stuff because that is so much more interesting!!! But thanks for bearing with me whilst I have a hard day.

Becky
xxx

PS. And if anyone can think of any ways I can find more craft related work I would be so grateful - because I have designed my work room to allow me to stand up it is the one thing that I can do without too much impact on the level of pain I have.